First I went to the Dollar Store for the tags and wax paper. I didn’t think I’d need a cart or basket, yet I ended up loading my arms with red plastic tablecloths, gift bags, tissue paper, candy canes, and the needed gift tags. I went down the Christmas decor aisle and remembered that our puppy ate our star tree topper. The only thing in stock that would match was a light-up angel whose face was more freakishly clownish than angelic, so our tree would remain topless.
I nearly forgot the wax paper, and after scanning rows and rows of aluminum foil, plastic wrap, and parchment paper, I realized they were out. No tree topper and now no wax paper. It was hard to shop for Christmas at the Dollar Store, but I didn’t want to battle the hustle and bustle of a larger venue.
Then my cell phone rang, and as I fumbled to pluck it from my purse, I dropped half of what wasn’t even on my list. It was my husband requesting whipping cream for the eggnog we’d serve the next day. Even though I needed to go to the grocery store for the wax paper, I confess my irritation because whipping cream was just one more thing for me to forget or drop.
At this
point, I became overwhelmed at how disorganized and unprepared I was for this
particular Christmas. I hadn’t even
baked a cookie yet. Holiday cards? I
couldn’t fathom posing for the perfect picture then addressing, licking, and mailing
envelopes. Bah humbug! Can someone get me a secretary for Christmas? For my
career? For my life? Ugh! I am a procrastinator and it hurts me to the
core when I’m forced to rush, rush, rush…
I’m also unfocused, so I can’t even make sense of the disunity of this story which is about a liquor store miracle. No, I didn’t learn how to turn water into wine, but let me try this again…
I was frazzled by last minute Christmas dinner shopping. I stood in the pay line at the dated Meadville Mall Dollar Store stressing about all I needed to get done. Then I was emotionally touched by the two ladies checking out in front of me. The first was distraught over splurging her $100, just enough for her grandkids’ gifts. The second was wishing for her adult grandson, in the opposite line, to say hello to her. She pointed him out to her friend and whispered how she was afraid he was avoiding her. He held an empty picture frame and failed to look her way. I just wanted to tell her to speak up or wave or tell him she was there. Instead she screamed silence, and he left without acknowledging his grandmother whose picture would most likely not fill his frame.
It was my turn, and I emptied my arms laden with unnecessary items. The cashier had a fun name, Timon, and a smile as wide as the meerkat character from The Lion King. This Timon was also tall, slender, and caramel colored. He made friendly small talk about the holidays and asked the usual, “Are you ready for Christmas?”
I shrugged my shoulders and answered, “I’m a bit behind, but that’s nothing new for me. How about you?”
He smiled a grin of a 101 pearls, and said, “Yeah, me too. I told my kids it’s no biggie to wait a couple extra days to get Christmas presents. Prices will be slashed then, you know?”
I wanted to tell him how much I understood because I am Serbian Orthodox and celebrate The Nativity on January 7th and American Christmas on December 25th. Timon, not a Serb, couldn’t afford gifts until the post-holiday sales. He was upbeat about it though… Hakuna Matata, no worries. And there I was stressed about having a bare naked tree top. I wasn’t about to tell him that I celebrate two Christmases, with two family feasts, two gift exchanges, two trees…
I raced out of the Dollar Store with my Coach purse and Hunter boots not worrying about paying for Christmas but embarrassed that I could yet still be frazzled about “all the stuff I just had to do” to prepare. Instead, Timon would smile and give his family love, safety, and shelter first and gifts later, when it was less burdensome.
I was relieved to escape into the brewing blizzard and jump into my reliable, warm SUV that I remotely started from inside the store. I thought about how many people downtown don’t even own a car. People push strollers, pull wagons, and ride bikes in all types of Northwestern PA weather, not for fun but out of necessity.
Next stop, Tops Friendly Market, the closest grocery in the little, rudimentary Meadville plaza I chose that day. I sped through the aisles for wax paper and whipping cream. I paid with cash, which I rarely carry. Behind me I noticed a petite elderly lady with a purple floral arrangement. The petals were bedazzled in silver and gold glitter and arranged in a festive winter pot. She also had a gallon of whole milk.
The little lady quietly asked how much the flower was, and the cashier told her it was $5.97. She slowly swayed her head back and forth. The cashier asked if she still wanted it and she shrugged, nodded yes, and opened her checkbook. She wrote “Georgie” in the memo. I could tell it was a hardship.
I got my change and was all set to go, but something stopped me from leaving Tops, check-out-line seven. I lingered to hear the golden gal’s final total, like one watching the Pennsylvania daily lottery. I kept looking back at her, like a nosy stranger.
The cashier told her the total: $9.51. Yes! I needed a number under ten and had enough. Before she stained the ink to the check, I handed the cashier the rest of my cash, a ten dollar bill, and murmured, “This is for her things.” The cashier looked as if he didn’t know what to do with it. I sensed my lengthy presence was making the customer uncomfortable, and I suddenly felt awkward. I lowered my head and muttered, “Please use this for her purchase.” I didn’t want her to notice me and sprinted out of Tops quicker than I did the Dollar Store. I can’t explain it, but I felt ashamed. It was Christmas, and all I could do was give up a random ten dollar bill?
Yes, because I love to shop and buy things… things that clutter my closets, counters, and shelves. Things that waste my time to purchase and return. Things that cost more than our middle class salary always covers.
I needed to escape the overwhelming empathy that I didn’t want to confront at the time. I didn’t want to see the less fortunate, the lonely, or the underdog while haphazardly tying up my selfish Christmas bows. But there it was, in big red and green bulbs scorching my heart at the downtown mall.
I live mere miles away from poverty. I have students without running water and electricity. I like to tell myself the most I can do is educate people, hoping this will break their cycle of poverty, but there’s much more that I can be doing for others.
My brain ached and I hoped my last stop to Wine and Spirits would leave my heart alone. I picked out some wine, and when I saw Bacardi Rum on sale, I grabbed a shopping cart and filled it. Crown Royal and Captain Morgan were on sale too. I stood at the checkout with enough bottles to fill a big boozy box. I justified this purchase, knowing I would share these spirits with friends and family over the holidays.
Rita, the sweet raspy voiced cashier, informed me that I qualified for a coupon. She tore it off her stack, scanned it, and announced, “There you go. You just saved ten dollars!”
“How much?” I incredulously asked.
“Ten dollars,” she joyfully repeated.
With tears in my eyes, I said, “Get out of town, Rita! I just paid ten dollars for a little old lady’s bill at Tops. I bought her milk and a sparkly flower.”
Rita shook her head with tears in her own eyes and said, “Isn’t it funny how the world works out like that?” At that moment, I believe both Rita and I felt the grace of the Lord, the reason for the season.
I asked what the coupon was for, and she explained that it was an automatic ten dollars off the purchase of two bottles of Bacardi, for a limited time only. The customer behind me commented, “Don’t question it. Just accept it.”
It was as if the customer knew how much I question reasons big and small. “I certainly accept the deal, but I think this discounted rum means more. I’ve just been shown a Christmas miracle in the Meadville State Store!” The customer looked at me funny, like I’d already tipped the bottle, but in the context of that past hour, my sobering perception of humanity and my place in it evolved.
Rita reaffirmed, “It sure is somethin’ how the world works like that. Can I help you out to your car with all this?”
At that heart-glowing moment, I felt as strong as the Grinch when he lifted the Christmas he stole above his head to return it to Whoville. I walked out of the liquor store feeling lighter, energized, and blessed. I loaded the booze box into my trunk, looked into the sky, and said, “Thank you!” Snowflakes bombarded my face and refreshed my spirit.
I drove away, sobbing. It was a bizarre shopping episode filled with sadness for the needy, gratitude for having all I need, and faithfully blessed that I was given a thumbs up of how good it is to selflessly give, no strings attached. My anonymous gift was almost instantly repaid, even though I didn’t want or expect reciprocation.
Lately, I’d been in a slump of feeling unappreciated, and this little miracle revealed how much better it can be to let go of entitled, expectant thinking that the ego fires within. No one owes me anything, and I’ve been working on accepting that. With Trinity fingers, I crossed myself over and over. Suddenly, I was sweating and my ugly devil inside was burning to get out. I needed a baptism of snowflakes, so I opened the sunroof, riding with peaceful hot tears and the pure relief of the heavenly winter.
When I got home, my husband apologized for forgetting the whipping cream. I admitted to initially being annoyed then said I was sorry. After all, he does the cooking and was preparing a big family Christmas Eve dinner. He is an example of a man who selflessly gives without expectations.
I ended up crying again. “I’m so happy I was able to get you whipping cream and a liquor store discount.” At this point, our teenage daughters came to the kitchen to see what all the commotion was about. I sniveled through my story and they laughed, hugged me, and affirmed I was indeed a part-time sunshine and a full-time kook.
Who knew running errands for wine, wax paper, and whipping cream could be so enlightening and filled with unexpected insights and miracles? God bless us, Everyone!
I’m also unfocused, so I can’t even make sense of the disunity of this story which is about a liquor store miracle. No, I didn’t learn how to turn water into wine, but let me try this again…
I was frazzled by last minute Christmas dinner shopping. I stood in the pay line at the dated Meadville Mall Dollar Store stressing about all I needed to get done. Then I was emotionally touched by the two ladies checking out in front of me. The first was distraught over splurging her $100, just enough for her grandkids’ gifts. The second was wishing for her adult grandson, in the opposite line, to say hello to her. She pointed him out to her friend and whispered how she was afraid he was avoiding her. He held an empty picture frame and failed to look her way. I just wanted to tell her to speak up or wave or tell him she was there. Instead she screamed silence, and he left without acknowledging his grandmother whose picture would most likely not fill his frame.
It was my turn, and I emptied my arms laden with unnecessary items. The cashier had a fun name, Timon, and a smile as wide as the meerkat character from The Lion King. This Timon was also tall, slender, and caramel colored. He made friendly small talk about the holidays and asked the usual, “Are you ready for Christmas?”
I shrugged my shoulders and answered, “I’m a bit behind, but that’s nothing new for me. How about you?”
He smiled a grin of a 101 pearls, and said, “Yeah, me too. I told my kids it’s no biggie to wait a couple extra days to get Christmas presents. Prices will be slashed then, you know?”
I wanted to tell him how much I understood because I am Serbian Orthodox and celebrate The Nativity on January 7th and American Christmas on December 25th. Timon, not a Serb, couldn’t afford gifts until the post-holiday sales. He was upbeat about it though… Hakuna Matata, no worries. And there I was stressed about having a bare naked tree top. I wasn’t about to tell him that I celebrate two Christmases, with two family feasts, two gift exchanges, two trees…
I raced out of the Dollar Store with my Coach purse and Hunter boots not worrying about paying for Christmas but embarrassed that I could yet still be frazzled about “all the stuff I just had to do” to prepare. Instead, Timon would smile and give his family love, safety, and shelter first and gifts later, when it was less burdensome.
I was relieved to escape into the brewing blizzard and jump into my reliable, warm SUV that I remotely started from inside the store. I thought about how many people downtown don’t even own a car. People push strollers, pull wagons, and ride bikes in all types of Northwestern PA weather, not for fun but out of necessity.
Next stop, Tops Friendly Market, the closest grocery in the little, rudimentary Meadville plaza I chose that day. I sped through the aisles for wax paper and whipping cream. I paid with cash, which I rarely carry. Behind me I noticed a petite elderly lady with a purple floral arrangement. The petals were bedazzled in silver and gold glitter and arranged in a festive winter pot. She also had a gallon of whole milk.
The little lady quietly asked how much the flower was, and the cashier told her it was $5.97. She slowly swayed her head back and forth. The cashier asked if she still wanted it and she shrugged, nodded yes, and opened her checkbook. She wrote “Georgie” in the memo. I could tell it was a hardship.
I got my change and was all set to go, but something stopped me from leaving Tops, check-out-line seven. I lingered to hear the golden gal’s final total, like one watching the Pennsylvania daily lottery. I kept looking back at her, like a nosy stranger.
The cashier told her the total: $9.51. Yes! I needed a number under ten and had enough. Before she stained the ink to the check, I handed the cashier the rest of my cash, a ten dollar bill, and murmured, “This is for her things.” The cashier looked as if he didn’t know what to do with it. I sensed my lengthy presence was making the customer uncomfortable, and I suddenly felt awkward. I lowered my head and muttered, “Please use this for her purchase.” I didn’t want her to notice me and sprinted out of Tops quicker than I did the Dollar Store. I can’t explain it, but I felt ashamed. It was Christmas, and all I could do was give up a random ten dollar bill?
Yes, because I love to shop and buy things… things that clutter my closets, counters, and shelves. Things that waste my time to purchase and return. Things that cost more than our middle class salary always covers.
I needed to escape the overwhelming empathy that I didn’t want to confront at the time. I didn’t want to see the less fortunate, the lonely, or the underdog while haphazardly tying up my selfish Christmas bows. But there it was, in big red and green bulbs scorching my heart at the downtown mall.
I live mere miles away from poverty. I have students without running water and electricity. I like to tell myself the most I can do is educate people, hoping this will break their cycle of poverty, but there’s much more that I can be doing for others.
My brain ached and I hoped my last stop to Wine and Spirits would leave my heart alone. I picked out some wine, and when I saw Bacardi Rum on sale, I grabbed a shopping cart and filled it. Crown Royal and Captain Morgan were on sale too. I stood at the checkout with enough bottles to fill a big boozy box. I justified this purchase, knowing I would share these spirits with friends and family over the holidays.
Rita, the sweet raspy voiced cashier, informed me that I qualified for a coupon. She tore it off her stack, scanned it, and announced, “There you go. You just saved ten dollars!”
“How much?” I incredulously asked.
“Ten dollars,” she joyfully repeated.
With tears in my eyes, I said, “Get out of town, Rita! I just paid ten dollars for a little old lady’s bill at Tops. I bought her milk and a sparkly flower.”
Rita shook her head with tears in her own eyes and said, “Isn’t it funny how the world works out like that?” At that moment, I believe both Rita and I felt the grace of the Lord, the reason for the season.
I asked what the coupon was for, and she explained that it was an automatic ten dollars off the purchase of two bottles of Bacardi, for a limited time only. The customer behind me commented, “Don’t question it. Just accept it.”
It was as if the customer knew how much I question reasons big and small. “I certainly accept the deal, but I think this discounted rum means more. I’ve just been shown a Christmas miracle in the Meadville State Store!” The customer looked at me funny, like I’d already tipped the bottle, but in the context of that past hour, my sobering perception of humanity and my place in it evolved.
Rita reaffirmed, “It sure is somethin’ how the world works like that. Can I help you out to your car with all this?”
At that heart-glowing moment, I felt as strong as the Grinch when he lifted the Christmas he stole above his head to return it to Whoville. I walked out of the liquor store feeling lighter, energized, and blessed. I loaded the booze box into my trunk, looked into the sky, and said, “Thank you!” Snowflakes bombarded my face and refreshed my spirit.
I drove away, sobbing. It was a bizarre shopping episode filled with sadness for the needy, gratitude for having all I need, and faithfully blessed that I was given a thumbs up of how good it is to selflessly give, no strings attached. My anonymous gift was almost instantly repaid, even though I didn’t want or expect reciprocation.
Lately, I’d been in a slump of feeling unappreciated, and this little miracle revealed how much better it can be to let go of entitled, expectant thinking that the ego fires within. No one owes me anything, and I’ve been working on accepting that. With Trinity fingers, I crossed myself over and over. Suddenly, I was sweating and my ugly devil inside was burning to get out. I needed a baptism of snowflakes, so I opened the sunroof, riding with peaceful hot tears and the pure relief of the heavenly winter.
When I got home, my husband apologized for forgetting the whipping cream. I admitted to initially being annoyed then said I was sorry. After all, he does the cooking and was preparing a big family Christmas Eve dinner. He is an example of a man who selflessly gives without expectations.
I ended up crying again. “I’m so happy I was able to get you whipping cream and a liquor store discount.” At this point, our teenage daughters came to the kitchen to see what all the commotion was about. I sniveled through my story and they laughed, hugged me, and affirmed I was indeed a part-time sunshine and a full-time kook.
Who knew running errands for wine, wax paper, and whipping cream could be so enlightening and filled with unexpected insights and miracles? God bless us, Everyone!
By D.S. Lucas (a.k.a Part-Time
Sunshine at parttimesunshine.com)
It's so nice to see others giving back. I once paid for a young woman's eye glasses when I heard her fretting about not having the down payment for them. I gave the money to the woman who had been helping me and asked her to give it to the other clerk, and then snuck out of the office. So I know how you felt. I've had the opportunity to give back a number of times, sometimes for as little as paying for a cup of coffee and a donut. May you have a wonderful holiday.
ReplyDeleteOh, how I love this story! For me, it personifies the strange mix that is the holiday season, which contrasts excess and lack with such aching clarity. We need to be grateful! I believe it is the secret to everything. Thank you for the beautiful reminder.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful story about the $10. I love when people give like you did. You are a ray of sunshine!
ReplyDeleteYes, sometimes we get to see our blessings all around us. You did a marvelous good deed!
ReplyDeleteSome times we have to step away from ourselves to see how truly blessed we are. Loved your story. Merry Christmas!
ReplyDeleteWhat a great story. I bet you made that Lady's day. Thank you for sharing with us.
ReplyDeleteMerry Christmas to you and your family :)
Lovely story about giving.
ReplyDeleteI can so relate to your story, D.S. Thank you for sharing! So beautiful...
ReplyDeleteLovely story. Thank your sharing your Christmas miracle. Merry Christmas.
ReplyDeleteI love it when people remember the truth of the season and spread goodwill. May your lovely act of generosity continue to spread ripples and inspire people. Happy Holidays!
ReplyDeleteThank you for your heartwarming comments. Wishing you all a beautiful holiday season filled with laughter, memories, traditions, and the present moments that can become new memory keepsakes. Keep writing about it. Shine on!
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